28 September 2006

Perfect quote

I read this quote today. It was in a small news reply about managers, politics and more wannabees.

"To summarize: it is a well-known fact that those people who most want to rule people are, ipso facto, those least suited to do it.
To summarize the summary: anyone capable of getting themselves made President should by no means be allowed to do the job.
To summarize the summary of the summary: people are a problem."

It is by Douglas Adams... ofcourse....

Have to finish my chapter today and tomorrow on computer and their influence on politics and privacy issues in the 1980's. (It feels like working in a niche yeah...)
And actually I was suprised how "anti- technology" some people could be. Especially when they do not know a thing about technology and databases in particular.
People who do know a great deal about it, do not fear the technology but the people around it. And not the technicians but the politicians... who do not know a thing about technology.
And actually.... I think they are right... Politicians should be feared.
Maybe I have been working on this technocracy thing too long...
Power is a nice thing.... but not combined with people...

21 September 2006

Cold turkey

Well today is my third day without sugar. At least, in which I am trying to get through the day without sugar. I was getting pretty overweight and found myself eating at least a pack of cookies or candy a day. And that is at least. So I cut sugar (cookies, candy, icecream) from my diet. (snif snif, goodbye sugar....)
Yesterday I already cheated. We had brownies for dessert. But I thought it would be oke to have a nice dessert. Today I feel like I can faint any minute. I do not know if it is because of lack of sugar, lack of caffeine (only had decaf for two days, ran out of regular) or dehydration of the day before.
I just realise how unhealthy I am. Or was... till three days ago :)
I started running sunday, so that was good. But that feels so much easier then breaking my food habbits. Well at least I am cleaning up my act (dieting, exercising, studying) so that is good.
For now I just feel like I have a pretty good excuse to stay in bed and write my thesis from here on my laptop :) Feeling better already :)

17 September 2006

Running

I started a running schedule. Actually I started it last week, but I already lost any kind of motivation I had during the week. I think it was mainly because I started running like an idiot.
Well... my kind of idiot.... 5 times 2 minute runs, with 2 minutes walking in between. I thought I would do well, but I tried too hard. I can run, but not really fast, so when I did the 2 minutes I ran my ass off.....
Well at least enough to make me pretty miserable by the time I was at three.
So today I started on another schedule. Less ambitious.. far less ambitious.
I started with 8 times 1 minute with a 1 minute walk in between. At six I hated myself but afterwards it felt rewarding. Along with the housekeeping and the cooking I did, it was the most usefull sunday I had in a long time.
I am really wondering if I will stick to the schedule. I already bought new running shoes for motivation. They are great, nice and bouncy. I think I will be the weakest link in this running trip.
I will try not to be.

Cheating

Last night I dreamed I cheated on my boyfriend. I kissed with some guy, and a lot of people had noticed and told me...
I think I had the dream just before 8 a.m. And I woke up at 1 p.m. still felling guilty about it.
It was one of those continous dreams where you wake up, fall asleep again and the dream continues. Well it continued with me felling guilty guilty guilty.. as hell....
I could never cheat on him and tell him or not tell him. Of that I was sure when I finally woke up.
Now I am just dissapointed I went through all this guilt without even having any kind of pleasure.
At least when you cheat, it must have been nice... But all this was in a dream... only the guilt was real...