On the edge

I am on the edge of just giving up, paying my fee for not graduating in time and just start all over.
I barely get a 6 out of 10 which is just enough to graduate, but I think my tutor really wants to give me less.
I just do not understand since when, are where in the entire proces or studying and graduating I dropped my level to 6/10 instead of my more usual 8/10.
When did I become stupid?

Barely good

Well when your kidneys are failing and you're on dialysis that is hardly good news.
But when your liver isn't functioning and doctors are not sure it will ever function again.... It's like giving up and saying your goodbyes.
I guess I will just wait. I can hardly get my mind around it. The only relieve is that you have wanted this. Well more or less.. in a way... think you planned it differently... Still it is hard to grasp.

Mozart's requiem

My best friend from highschool tried to kill herself and is in a coma in a hospital.
I can not stop thinking about her tiny frame in a hospital bed.
And I do not want to start thinking about what will happen next. She will never be normal, or at least who she was again. All the memories ran though my head today and yesterday. How we worked on school projects, how we joked about her depression, the music, the smurfs, the silly acts. She got me and I got here. Some people just aren't ment for this world and she was probably one of them. How she told me she was gay, and I reacted plain stupid. And how we laughed about it afterwards.
The ouzo, the wine, the legs, the musicals, dead, the cat, the crying, the medication, the despair. I will never forget. Mozart's requiem.
I will miss her so much, because although we did not have much contact anymore, when we had, it was like old times. It never changed. Last postcard I got from her, it said she was thinking a lot of me. Now I can not stop thinking about her.

Curves

Hahaha this was great. I watched the Hayseed Dixies at a festival I am working at.
After playing Queen's fat bottomed girls in bluegrass, dixie style, the singer started: How many guys here have a girlfriend. Some hands were raised. And he asked, of all the guys with a girlfriend, how many of your girls have gained weight since you met them. A couple of guys still had their hands up. Well... better take a good look at her at your wedding day, when she is standing in that dress.... It just will not get better then that. So.. now... how many girls out there have a boyfriend. So I raised my hand. And how many of those boyfriend have put on some pounds since you've started the relationship. Since my sweetie was no where to be seen, I still had my hand up in the air.. (sorry sweetie, if you were here you would have done the same ;))
So.... And there were about ten girls in the audience who still had their hands up....
In this entire audience there are only 10 girls who can cook a proper meal for their men... hahahaha I felt pleased :)