Better

How blue I was this morning.... The rain didn't come true.
The few drops on my laptops were the most I have seen so far.
But then a friend sent me some Steven Lynch.
This is pretty sick humor. Especially politically incorrect for Americans.
But it cleared my skies.
Do not listen to it if you do not have a strong sense of humor :D

Waiting for the rain

Tonight I had the weirdest dream. Was at a weird party and had a lot of fun . I woke up knowing in real life this entire situation would never be possible. It made me sad. It just felt so nice.
So for now I am kinda sad. It is hot as hell and very very humid. The rain will come in tonight. I will probably be sitting on a train on my way to work at a Robbie Williams concert. I guess it will be cool. Although I am not really excited about my co workers. Most of them are older then I am. And I guess I am more used to working with younger people and being in charge now. most of then haven't worked in quite some time now and I would like if we could just keep things the way they are. Yesterday was very cool though. I had to work at some test day for an air show.
The boss had brought his dog and his son. Both of them were very very cool. I guess I played with the son, Jesse, for about the entire afternoon. I guess it was the first time I had really really played with a kid. I could not remember I actually played when I was a kid. It was fun to see his imagination, to see how many times he would repeat things and to see how everything in that more or less empty space was a thing to play with. This was the first really positive experience I had with kids. I would like them, if you could order them in this package.
Yesss! I have to go inside, cause the rain kicks in. I think I will just put my laptop inside and go outside for myself Bye!

Blessed I guess

Today when I walked out of the shops with my hands and bags filled with food I realised again how blessed we are. And especially how blessed I am. For some reason everything felt good today.
The physical therapist was fun, going by at the office was fun. Handling all my shit was fun, because now it has finally been delt with. Grocery shopping was fun. Driving the hired car was especially fun. But I realised it has been a while since people had bad diseases or died.
I have a great family, a nice boyfriend and very good friends. I just feel lucky.
And as the frosting on the cake, tonight the aired Grease. I never realised how dirty some of the lyrics were, because I had only seen it without subtitles.
But let's bless this movie, because it is John Travolta's only real good movie.
Go grease lightning!

grumpy

Today I am just grumpy. For some reason I always have to get used to normal life when I come back from work. For some reason there are always a million things to take care of when you return. For some reason I like it best when left alone.
Yesterday was nice. I wasn't grumpy at all and I hung out on my balcony.
But today is worse. Have to go to the tax office to take care of my rental problems. Why on earth am I having trouble with them for the last half year? If I can not even fix things, how can the less smart people around fix things?
I feel like I am going to have a cold and I have to get up at four thirty in the morning. Of course there will be no sleep. Have to fix a black pants for work and and and... I truely am grumpy.
Guess I better get it going, otherwise it will take forever. At least I do not have to get in the car and get my ass through traffic in Amsterdam tomorrow. And the person I am working for is not as childish as the last. So I guess things will be ok..... tomorrow.....

Christians

I have learned a lot about christians these last couple of days. Worked for a christian youth event. And for somehow they are a little bit weird. They victimize themselves. Obviously it is very hard to be a christian these days. Or maybe they want you to believe it is. It did not seem that hard to me. Everybody was very nice, very clean, did not curse, there were so many things you could do in your own christian way. It seemed like a nice closed community where you could live your life as cut off from the world as much as you would like it. The event went very well and everybody was very pleased. To me it seemed harder to just live without a goal in the outside world where grown man can act as children as long as they want. Cursing when the christians are gone, just because now you can finally curse. Showing off how you're in charge.
Too bad I do not believe in any kind of God or spirit, because I think it would fit my naieve personality very well, this cut off world.

It is nice out here

Today I went to bring the car back to my dad. He told me he had done so many things. He felt like he had the energy again. I cannot describe how happy that made me feel. I worried about him a lot lately. But now he was so happy and cheerfull. He even climbed the three stairs to my apartment and approved it. He thought it would be a great place to live. And it is. Had a bbq with my boyfriend tonight. I actually like it when you have a small scale bbq, with two pieces of meet, two vegetables, two cheeses and just beer and a tiny bbq. It was good.
Tonight while I actually should be sleeping, I took a beer and sat on the balcony. My new neighbour sat on his and we chatted for an hour. Watched his cats tried to make it to my balcony.
I am glad he is my neighbour. Someone I already know, but not too well.

Tomorrow I will start working for about a week. Somehow I am just a little sad to leave already. It is so nice here.

frogs

Tonight is the first night in my new home. It already feels like home, so that is a good thing.
When the doors are open, all kinds of bugs come flying in. Most of them I have never even seen before. I was warned for the biting bugs, but so far I have only had one bite.
You can hear the frogs in the pond behind my house. Now it is so quiet, even all the students stopped making any noise. I will go and stand on my balcony and just enjoy the peace and quiet night air. I just love living in nature. I think I will be happy here. Maybe I have actually found myself a home, more then a house... a home. Finally.

Hobo knowledge

It's my general policy to be nice to strangers. You never know what they're like.
So when people shout at me in the streets, I say politely hello.
So when the hobo's at my door start talking to me while moving my stuff i say: yes indeed it it warm in black clothes. I am doing fine, how are you? etc etc. Do not keep up conversation, but try to answer as shortly as possible while still being polite.
It starts being anoying when the yesterday's hobo's are here again, and they start shouting:
Hee you were here yesterday. You should have moved by now.
I say yes I should have. But then I went inside and he gave me an entire lecture from the other side of the door. I stopped listening. Sometimes I wish I did not have the you can talk to me and I'll listen appearance. For now I have to go outside and get two shopping carts to move my stuff tomorrow but I guess when I enter the building with those things I am definitely in his area of expertese so maybe I'll wait till he's gone...

Pick up thingies

Well today was the first day I could go for decorating stuff. Now I finally know how the walls turn out and the floor turns out, I can go and find some matching stuff.
I am just really bad at it. Two days ago I went to my dad's to pick up a carpet which belonged to my grandmother. In my memory it was soooo different. But for old times' sake I took it. Turned out to be beautiful with the walls and the floor. So that was a relief.
So today I dedicated myself to some minor decisions. Kitchen towels, kitchen paper rol and ofcourse kitchen thingies to pick up hot pans. I decided on a grey theme, since the kitchen it white..
But then I saw the best pickup thingies ever. They had the flames!
So now I have a grey theme in my kitchen, a grey/stone theme in my bathroom and Flame kitchen thingies. I am still pondering over a Flame toilet seat. I just fall in love with those things.

Birds

Last week I saw at my new place there was a little birds nest. Mom and dad were flying off and on to feed the little ones. Hoped they were not in my rain pipe, because they would be flushed away by the upcoming rainfall. But they were in a little hole, right above it. Just under the stones where it becomes nice and warm. This week they were gone. I guess they flew off. Good for them. Hope they survive till next year to build their own home above my rain pipe.